Focus on the positive swing...a list~

eye will focus~ (photo taken by VeganBeats)

     The upswing is drastically more enjoyable and motivating then any fall. When I scrape my knees and bleed, I (now am) trying to ignore and avoid the obvious disappointments. The hindering physical blows that cause me to falter. But, with enough chosen ignorance, disassociation from the negative, it explodes, or needles it's way through a smaller and lesser means of acceptance. It's as if a town will flood from the tear drop hole in a dam.
     I've been on a positive hike for a while, today some blows came at my face, but it's been building throughout this week. I haven't been preparing myself. My mornings have started to grow harder, my self worth growing more bruised with each passing minute. Yes this is an emotional vent of sorts, but...so is life. I'm putting in the ardent effort to focus and concentrate on the positive silverlinings in my life, as it is currently. I think maybe I've been milking the great stuff and not attending to the things that do trouble/burden me. This shushing has rumbled and it's hungry for attention. I've slipped a bit and need to re grip my shoes.
     I may have slipped, things may be pointing towards a "bad day" but these are the silverlinings I will direct my attention to, acknowledge the shit, but don't sit staring at it....flush it down.

1. art is back
2. I'm in Korea, in a foreign country full of opportunity
3. I am alive and breathing
4. I have two lovely animals as companions, friends, and snugglers
5. I have a roof over my head
6. I have enough money to provide for myself and the kids
7. I am employed
8. I can do yoga, run, stretch, be active
9. I can write and read
10. I have access to internet, a computer, luxuries in my life
11. I have a lot of beautiful Souls and friends around me
12. I am surrounded by inspiration and supportive people
13. I smile, and it's not forced
14. I have a beautiful family
15. I have a visa
16. I will have more time to devote to my passions
17. I am a survivor and strong womyn
18. my vocabulary is always growing
19. I am learning something new everyday
20. I have the luxuries and ability to choose vegan as a lifestyle
21. I have clean clothes
22. I have a shower
23. I have heat
24. I have air conditioning
25. I am not sick with a life-threatening disease
26. I get to teach the youth and be inspired by their child-like joy
27. I have a wonderful partner who is inspiring
28. I have a younger brother full of life and is also very inspiring
29. I am going to DJ fest this weekend
30. My friends are talented musicians and entrepreneurs 
31. I have a lot of music I love
32. My father has showed me so much in life
33. My mother has showed me so much in life
34. I have family in Korea
35. My family all has big supportive hearts
36. My cousin is having a boy
37. My other cousin just got married and is so happy
38. My friend's restaurant is doing so well, and he is chasing  his dream...he is inspiring
39. nearly 7 years ago, yoga was introduced to me
40. I get to do taebo
41. I can run and walk
42. I have an awesome camera
43. I am learning photography
44. I have been in love before
45. I have some girlfriends that are my sisters
46. My bestest and oldest friend is getting married later this year
47. I will be in America in December to celebrate with her
48. I have a big heart
49. I get to have a full day
50. I have this blog
51. I have access to endless opportunity
52. I will discover and learn more today,tomorrow, next week, etc. 
53. I have people that believe in me
54. My friends are all over the place
55. I get to hear stories all the time
56. I keep meeting new and inventive individuals
57. I am 25 years old
58. The weather is lovely
59. The sun is shining
60. I have a big ol'bed that I get to snuggle into later
61. I will get to travel around Seoul today
62. I will share time with learners today
63. I get to ride the greatest subway system around today
64. I have an iphone
65. I can easily call any of my friends or family today
66. I have many relationships that mean the world to me
67. I have a lot of paper
68. I have a lot of pencils and pens
69. I get to draw today, and sketch, and design
70. I have a creative mind
71. I am living
72. I am a contributing part of society
73. I can connect and communicate
74. I can speak some Korean
75. I am learning Korean
76. I am studying French
77. I have read over two-hundred or three-hundred books
78. I love
79. I care
80. I empathize
81. I have become a stronger and more assertive womyn
82. I am a survivor and fighter
83. I know my way around a kitchen
84. I am skilled with baking
85. I understand food elements
86. I have drank delicious wine
87. I have traveled to several countries
88. I have lived in several countries and plan on doing that more often
89. I have a vacation coming up
90. I will be able to rest
91. I am not colorblind
92. I was raised in a loving (and challenging) household
93. I am independent
94. I have a wall full of completed artwork
95. I am going to surprise someone I love with hopeful inspiration
96. I love to dance
97. I like my hair-color, though fake, I love it 
98. I have High Fidelity AND Detroit Rock City on my computer
99. I have the freedom to watch them later
100. I have seen so many wonderful musicians live

the list can go on...ahhh